I’ve never run a distance race alone. I’ve always had someone run all or at least 80% of a race with me. That’s intentional. I don’t like being with my thoughts for that long, doing something repetitive. I also don’t train alone. So, I knew this race was going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Because I was running alone. Well. Physically alone.
You might be thinking, “hasn’t she run a marathon before? Why would this be any different?” Well, my friend, it is. 14k more is ALOT of distance to add, to an already difficult distance. 42k is tough, as is. It’s just long enough to be doable while being incredibly challenging. It’s why only 1% of the world run marathons. Now, add 14k to the mix and it’s a completely different race.
(Americans 1 mile = 1.6k)
With every race, I prep the night before. This race required a 0345 hotel departure, with a 0520 start. Needless to say, I did not sleep. I had yet to acclimate to the time zone and the pre-race nerves just never settled. I did get some “rest” but no sleep.
The start line was electric. Tens of thousands of people. I took it all in. Surrounded by friends and strangers, feelings all the excitement and nerves. The escape crew ran the first 1.5k together. It was a core memory to run the streets of the Cape Town as a group, that had already done so much. This was merely the culmination and celebration of the work.
As everyone started to settle into their stride, I made it a point to stay grounded and trust the process. I had my plan and I didn’t want to get caught in the excitement of everyone else. And I’m proud to say I did just that.
The first 10k felt really good. It was DARK. VERY DARK. The nerves kind of settled and I had remained consistent in my pace. Then the next 10k happened and the realization that I was alone – HIT ME. I got to the 21k mark, felt physically strong but mentally, I knew what was coming and started to get in my head a bit. I know that the 25-30k’s are my hardest. Even in training. My body tends to feel it, while simultaneously knowing there is still so much more to go, dread can set in. And not shocking to anyone, I panicked. In the middle of a beautiful neighborhood, I had genuinely thought I wouldn’t finish this race. I knew I had 2 insane hills to climb and I wasn’t inclined trained. So, I made a phone call to a dear friend and was reminded that I can do hard things and that my “serial killer walk” would get me through the hills. It was the pep talk I needed.
For the next 7k I buckled down and did all I could to stay the course until I got to Chapman’s Peak – the 1st of 2 climbs.
This climb extends from 28k to 34k. It’s a STUNNING BEAUTIFUL part of the course but a challenge. I tweaked my time cadence to a 1:1 run/walk ratio for the first 3k, then serial killer walked the last 3k. If I’m being honest, this was all mental. The negotiations made with myself during this 6k stretch, were WILD. If you are a runner, you know what I’m talking about. This is where being alone during this type of section, can make or break. Yes, there were people around. But, no one I could rely on to share the intrusive thoughts or even the motivating moments. IYKYK, running with someone makes it easier. But I finally made it to the down hill section and LOVED IT. I let my legs just go and took advantage of gravity letting me feel “fast.”
For the next 8k, I got my groove back. I got back to 3:1 run/walk plan and I didn’t feel terrible. I was a bit tired and the sun was coming out in FULL force but it wasn’t the worst I’ve felt in a run. Until …
Constantia Nek: 42k – 47k
A 5k that made me cry. A 5k where I saw grown men cry. A 5k that slapped me in the face and said “who the hell do you think you are!?”
This climb, while shorter than Chapman’s Peak, was double the elevation gain and incline. It was BRUTAL.
And at the back end of the race!? Who made this course!? I’d like to speak with them.
Y’all. This 5k will be something I never forget. The way I felt. The way I was challenged. The way I didn’t stop. (I saw at least 10 people call it quits at this point in the race.) This 5k made me proud of the runner I am.
Oh and did I mention, the road had a gradient!? Think NASCAR slanted roads, the entire 56k. My watch said I ran a 58k because I was trying to stay on the “FLATS,” rather than run slanted.
The rest of the race was a bit of a blur. I started to talk and motivate the runners around me. I feel myself when I’m encouraging others, which in turn motivates me. We bonded over how “dumb” this all was. The things we do for a medal. I appreciated my pack of folks during the last 5k.
When I got to the cheer zone at 55k and saw my friends – I didn’t know what to feel. I was TIRED. I was HOT. I was PROUD. I was CRYING. Then Mike Obrey put his arm around me and ran with me for a moment, letting me vent about how hard this was and I was struggling and he validated my feelings and ended it by saying “and you are doing it.”
With 1k left – UP A DAMN HILL – I had in fact DONE IT.
There was a lot of math going on in my head while on the course, to ensure I made the cut off time and to know I didn’t make it under the 7 hour mark, kind of hurt.
But ya know what – I be damned if I let someone tell me that missing the cut off by a few minutes, negates my race. Sure, if I were to run this race again, my 2025 time wouldn’t be “official.” But guess what!?
I’m NEVER running that race again.
The 2 Oceans Marathon was epic. I learned alot about myself between those 56k’s. I’m more capable than I give myself credit for and I’m my best when I can help and support others. And now I know, I can run alone … but I will happily choose not to.
What a life I live. The gratitude is immense.
Running truly is the greatest gift I’ve given myself.






































